I don't know what I'm doing

Thoughts

Since i was young, every fucking thing was about not doing what others expect me to. I guess thats my main problem and the reason why i always fail at satisfying people in an emotional base.

First of all, I'm not quite sure if anyone who is interested in this will ever read it, because I'd like to have some kind of privacy. Still i feel the need to share some things. This is why I'm using the world wide web to get informed of some very basic things about psychology.

This video I found, let me try to talk about my feelings to several people in my surrounding.
It tells the story of an very young girl who was abused in very inhuman ways. She feels evil and acts evil, but in the end there is a slight change in her mind that tells her, she has been doing many things wrong in her life:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2-Re_Fl_L4

Hallo Again.

 Oh Gosh,

Last week, i was searching for a new community to post some thoughts and stuff.
YES, I WAS LOOKING FOR ANOTHER BLOG.
Guess why. I even forgot this one existed.
Well, project failed either way because i was way too lazy to add some routine in my life.

Maybe i'm doing better this time.

Just a few general things to say about myself: I'm living in Austria so my first language is German, which means that my written English might not be perfect English, but i'm trying hard to achieve some new spelling skills. :D

Basically i want to use this blog, for showing you what i'm doing. If i'll draw something, i'll upload it here. If i have written something I'll upload it here.

Here you will find, all of my personal work.

Some of my drawings coming soon.

First of all, I  would just like to give you some information about what i did today.

Today, i was wasting my time. I didn't do anything at all except for running up and down all day, going for long walks and didn't do anything productive at all. Well. That's it.
Tomorrow i have to read a lot more. I could give you a review about the books I'll read.

-> I'll write that down so i won't forget it!

Well, back to what i did today.
The only interesting thing is.
That i took the most adorable pics and videos of the sweetest cat in the world!

HERE'S THE VID: (lol btw that sound in the background is my Mom. Even if it might seem as if she's mad, that's just the way how Albanian language sounds i guess. xD) (Me talking German to the cat. sry.)

LE CAT :3

Le Me & Le Cat

You might say that there are even sweeter cat's than this one, but this cat has the most amazing character as far as you can tell. :D


I LOVE HER SO MUCH, PLS ENJOY THIS AS MUCH AS I DID. :D


Good Night Sweethearts. :)

Very first post

I had a very bad day, i think thats why i decided to make myself a blog. I need to wirte my thoughts and also emotions down. I'll  try to express myself, and hope that my readers, if i ever will have some, will understand what i'm trying to say. It might be a little difficult for me, to express myself, especially in english. But i'll give it a try. I'll try to post in some kind of routine, but there might be some days, which i can't post. Doesn't even matter, i think. The main idea is, to say something, if there's something to say. That's all i want to say, at the moment. ;D